Wednesday, July 22, 2009

22nd July 2009 Stormy

Today I would like to talk about relationships and my views on it.

I realized that relationships may not last forever unlike what other's think it will. I was reading a story this evening about a woman with two daughters and one day her daughter ask her "Mummy, mummy, have you ever loved someone ?" The women looked at her daughter and reply "Yes. But it is not your father ?" Tears rolled down my eyes as I realize sometimes we are going too fast that we are not able to slow down to see those around us. Sometimes the one for us is actually right in front of us.

Sometimes we need to know that when we like a person, it does not mean we need to possess the person. We can be by their side giving them emotional support. Love is putting yourself in a position where you sacrifices for the other party.

Friday, June 19, 2009

19th June 2009 clear skies (In the hospital)

So here I am typing my blog in the hospital with my cousin's laptop. My granny is serverly ill like what I said with heart attack and right now its 2.46am. I am here with my cousin and aunt ( who flew back from the US in the afternoon) We decided to stay here with granny because we are afraid something would happen to her so we are here. We are very funny we are muching on chips and twisties and bought tons of magazine to read. There are her world, tiger beat, seventeen, teens, women weekly, US daily, pop star online and many others. I am super tired because I did not really sleep last night. Later I still got to go church and chill out night. I hope I have enought energy so I have been drinking a total of 5 cups of black coffee. I finally find medicated patches useful since my whole body is aching. My eyes are also very dry and painful. Too bad... who ask she is my beloved granny. We have to be here 24 hours standby... Lord, I really need your grace now.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

18th June 2009 Clear Skies

Today something really unexpected happened. My grandmother is admitted in the hospital. The doctor ask all of us to have our hearts prepare as anytime she may leave. I was very scared at that point of time as we need to have a conclusion after having a family decision. We need to decide whether to just let her go peacefully or let her use the survival machine to let her carry on her life. Majority of us wants to just let her go peacefully because we don't want her to suffer much. But something in my heart is that I will definitely miss her. I remember I told her that she will get to see the day I graduate out from college, to see the day I am on the stage fufilling my dream, to see the day I get married.

I even promised her I will one day write and compose a song for her and sing it to her but now I doubt I even have a chance to do it. Granny have been taking care of me since I was a baby and I will forever remember those times where she would dress me up and then together with my grandpa, she would bring me down to the market and I would every single day no fail go into the medical hall and buy a tube of toothpaste no fail. It is like almost everyday that the lady at the medical hall would call me 'Miss Toothpaste'.

My aunt told me Grandma already know her life is going to end so when all of us arrive she would spend sometime talking to us. Cousin Marcus almost cried but he just didn't because he knows that granny would be upset seeing him like that. I also almost wanted to cry but knows granny would be upset to see us like that. She will forever will be in my heart.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

17th June 2009

Recently I begin thinking what I really want for life and something came up to my mind.

Berklee...

Yep... Berklee College of Music. My dream school since young. I always fantasize about going to Berklee and have always been set on going there. But recently the drive just suddenly came back and I am very determine on going there. But one problem is friends. I know I will miss them somehow. It is not very long. Around one to two years till I audition and I really find it hard to let go now. Someone told me to make everyone around me to hate me so that it will be easier. I find her words make sense but now I have a drive of wanting to convince someone to go there with me. I really need an answer if I can really get to there.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

15th June 2009 Clear Skies

I am already back from my three days chalet and is very exhausted. On saturday is our Celebrity Weekend. We have a total of 38 people in service together. Jing have to book 3 rows which is really something really challenging for her since she is on her own. I have a sudden liking F.I.R. Faye is a really amazing singer and of course Real's guitar skills is superb just like Shane's. My favourite song by them so far is 'Crescent Moon Bay'. It's a really unique composition even the lyrics is deep and well-written. Their song 'Loved' is one of their best song since it really shows Faye's amazing vocals using the whistle register but Crescent Moon Bay is still the best for me because of the really unique tune. Faye and Real's duet in 'Three Wishes' remains as the sweet kind of song like those childhood puppy love. I think that it might remind a lot of people about their teenage times. I have already got hold of many of their songs. I was once their mega fan (read once) so I actually have their album 'Unlimited'. So if any one wants their song, msn me then I will send you =)

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

10th June 2009 Clear Skies



Basically today I went to west mall to get those things I needed for the chalet. I bought some zip lock bags to put my smelly clothes and a sleeping bag since I don't have mine with me. So after buying, I went home and begin lying around and watching Boys Over Flower AGAIN it's my third time... Then I decide to take out my violin. Yesterday My violin neck broke... but I bring it to repair... So it turn out like that
Then when I take it out again... My strings broke... Which turned out like that...



I really wanted to faint man !!! Must really go and repair it =( My poor daughter... hahaha







Tuesday, June 9, 2009

9th June 2009 Clear Skies

Well... Like any other day except I was woken up with Shane Ong's text message as early as 11am. But at least I manage to go back to sleep and wake up at 4pm. I am currently writing another story.

It's about a popular mega star, Mikayla Curtin who have to go undercover as a ordinary American teenager because a psychopathic stalker have been stalking her. So her management sends her to live with her uncle and cousin in a small town in California where she disguise as Lexie Curtin She meets her cousin Lizzie Geller and both of them did not start out well at first because Lexie still have her diva personality. Lizzie teaches her how to live her life as a normal girl. Lexie then finds out that Lizzie have always dream of becoming a superstar like her. Lexie then helps Lizzie to finds her inner star in her.

So basically I spend half my day typing away on my keyboard just to set up my characters and plot. Hopefully it turn out well. =)

Then just now I saw a tapioca cake on the table which my aunt bought yesterday so I start to eat, then suddenly my aunt wants to try so I let her have a bite then she tells me that it is spoilt. I have already eaten half of it then she tells me its spoil. Hopefully I would not vomit in the middle of the night.